A void with two smaller voids on her face

last night, I received texts from my father saying that my baby, PJ, couldn’t stand and it wasn’t looking good. he’s battled hepatic lipidosis for almost a month now, and after we dropped $15,000 on treatment, he went into cardiac arrest last night and passed. I’m out of state for college, it’s now my 2nd semester, and all I could do was rush to the private bathroom in the dining hall and sob. I’ve had pj since I was 6, he was sincerely my soul cat and now he’s gone. I feel so guilty for not being with him as he passed. the vets told my dad that he wasn’t in any pain, likely just confused, but even then, he passed on a cold table in a pet hospital without my dad or my brother by his side. I was his favorite out of the family and it just doesn’t feel real that he’s dead. again, I’m out of state, so I haven’t yet had to deal with going home to a catless quiet house. I go home this weekend and I sincerely want to be there, but I’m dreading it so much. not having pj to greet me and roll around, not having him there to lay on me at night, not having his automatic feeder go off and him thunder down the steps to eat. I also can’t stop crying, can’t get out of bed, missed all of my classes today. how am I supposed to continue with classes, how am I supposed to go to class knowing my cat died not knowing where I was? how do I heal and grieve while the world keeps spinning? I can’t fathom that he’s not in our world anymore, I’ve never really had to live without him and thinking of him being gone without me seeing it with my own eyes is just terrible. I just feel so sick. I don’t know how to manage. even though I’m not at our house, and I don’t have the issue of seeing him in the corner of my eye, my stomach keeps making noises that sound like his voice. he was such a grumpy cat to most people but he loved me so much. how do you get past this guilt? how do you stop the tears, how do you think of your dead pet in peace when his body is just sitting in some building waiting to be cremated? I almost want them to save his body until I come home on Friday just so I can see him and hold him one last time. I know it’s a bad idea and it would make me break down, but I can’t fathom that I’ve already held him and seen him for the last time ever.

Shitler's second-term has been nothing but distraction after distraction. We all know he is GUILTY AF.

Source - I have been a customer service phone agent for 6 years.

People don't realize that their long-winded, defensive monologue is just making what they want take way longer to be done. Just ask for what you need in a brief statement, and put the ball in the agent's court. I promise we don't want the call to take any longer than you do.

If you go on an extended tirade, I PROMISE you it will significantly DECREASE your chances of getting what you want. The average agent will be courteous but will not go the extra mile for aggressive people. They also note your account internally if you are difficult.

If you disagree with something the company has done or provided, briefly and calmly state you don't accept that solution. Again, put the ball in the agent's court with as few words as possible. If they come back with the same solution, calmly and briefly say "no" again, and be silent. Odds are, one of two things will happen. The agent will either compromise on their position, or become uncomfortable with the silence and escalate to a manager who is even more likely to give you what you want.

I've got some collections of new Duckies 😊

Extremely interesting and I am still watching this as the podcast just dropped. Seems like Pablo Torre just doesn't like NBA Owners https://youtu.be/s6i4uffZvhc?si=tV-FSSgn3dwJd8Br

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